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28 Jan

first post of 2010

another great year ahead. i hope!

finally settled down into the routine of sch life after 3 weeks of school. And did my new year resolutions for 2010 (:

everything has been good so far. my entrepreneurship minor course really taught me how to be efficient and to get things done now instead of putting it off. feel like a changed man after it.

bought a 3000 piece world map jigsaw puzzle. super chiong at it during the first week of sch. but now really no time to do so kept it somewhere else. will take it out after my exams end. will finish it in 1 month.

cannot sign up for adidas sundown half marathon because it’s full! shall run the army half marathon then. this year will be the year i’m halfway to achieving the goal of running a full marathon. cool stuff

starting up a business is real real tough. kept having doubts and fear about recently because it’s time to think of what to do after i graduate (this year end) already. sometimes i’m super optimistic, somethings the future really look uncertain. must ride on the wave when i’m feeling and thinking good and deal with the pessimism when it comes. one way that helps is to also mix more with ppl who share the same ideals as you! luckily i got 1 or 2 friends who really became a real entrepreneur and i can always ask them for advice.

yeah january is the month of meeting up friends after i have been so busy in dec. great to see them again as always. very comforted to know these are ppl who i can really count on!

i’m trying to dedicate 1-2h each day expanding my knowledge about business and anything related to it rather than getting caught up in sch work and all. glad to say it’s working for the past few days.

lastly, hope everyone is having a blast. have a great 2010 and we are all looking forwad to CNY!

23 Oct

growing up

time to grow up my dear friend… get out of your sad sorry self.

21 Oct

my life?

On determination.

If you can’t get through the mountain, try going around it.
If you can’t go around it, try going over it.
If you can’t go over it, ask yourself if getting over to the other side is all that important.
If it is, set your heart out to dig a tunnel through it.

16 Oct

sigh…

If I can stop – Emily Dickinson

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

Each day I love you more
Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.

02 Oct

bestest day by far

yup i’m over the moon.

if there’s one thing that really helped me, it’s ‘perseverance’! well i almost gave up until (call it fate or coincidence) give me another chance. and then u grab it with both hands and never let go! just do your best, and if it’s meant to be yours, it will be yours eventually. and two owls together ain’t that bad afterall huh.

recess week pass as quickly as expected… but going back to school isn’t a bad thing after all. this is really one time where i look forward to school.

anyway, has anyone ate shangri la – the line before? yes i know it’s gd, just want to receive some comments from friends who have gone there before. there’s 38% discount if you book early! haha but i can’t remember the website link. nvm next time will find and post to share with everybody.

THIS IS IT the movie is coming out soon! strongly encourage everyone to go watch. and get tickets early to avoid disappointment..

btw, i’m looking forward to christmas. it’s the time when the festive love is all around! and friends from australia or wherever in the world can be seen in singapore. and that’s when i have my one month break too so i’ll be really looking forward to december.

i got lots of things to share with everyone!!

off to reading my ‘one up on wall street’ before i sleep

26 Sep

Recess week

Yeah recess week is here! And yes, i couldn’t be happier that i have 9 full days of ‘holidays’ starting from today. As for having to submit to projects and 2 assignments as well as other assignments an tutorials, those can wait :D

The first goal of the recess wek is to read finish my book Peter Lynch’s One up on wall street. And i just went on a shopping spree… on the stock market that is. Hahaha. I definitely agree buying stuff is therapeutic. Not to mention if u know it’s gonna pay future dividends plus capital appreciation in future. How can anyone resist?? Lol

And i sort of filled for Sunday Monday and Tuesday already. Can’t wait for next week! i think i have been feeling like this for weeks now already. Let’s just hope everything will go according to plan. Ahem.. just the same troubling thoughts for weeks. I don’t really believe in fate. But this time it got to be it! So either it’s a good thing, or this all is a joke. Either how, i’m sure i’ll see the funny side of it and smile. (:

And yeah i found the joy of staying at home again. Okay it can really get quite restless at times. But there’s books and magazines lying all around just waiting for me to read them.
Booked my interview for my minor in entrepreneurship course already. Really MUST get it this time! Then clear all my electives. And if things go according to plan, maybe take leave from school for 1 semester before my last semester to set up some business. So even if it fails, i can always come back to sch and apply for a job after that. Which, even when writing now, doesn’t seem appealing at all. And when u plan for failure, u usually do. So yeah, i’m still going to take my leave from sch to do a business for half a year. But the only solution is for it to succeed. No two ways about that.

My favourite music video for now http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ipE_rBkLfxU&feature=related Can i just say i absolutely looooove fergie. Her voice just rocks. I’ll recognize her voice in any song.

Plan for today. Go swimming/running, do proj, read book, and back to my websites. Way overdue. Alright everyone, have fun too in the coming week!!!

01 Sep

Hi!

yeah i’m back! finally took the trouble to write a post today. maybe because i don’t feel like doing anything now too so here i am. let’s see wht i can recall for the past few months. alright here goes.

 i had the most scariest dream ever. and it came in 2 parts. the 1st can ask me when you see me in person. the second was about me waking up late on tues and missing two classes in e morning and having to rush to sch for the third class. so i was sort of in a panic, unsure of what to do. that’s when i realised it was a sunday and i was still going to play soccer in the afternoon. what a relief i swear… but the moral of it is that my fears and my inner most thoughts haven’t really changed much from last time. which is kind of disappointing since they weren’t exactly gd traits. but well, partly is because i haven’t really had the chance to change it too. and also, it was very amusing after i got over the fact that it was a bad dream. oh and maybe the good thing is it helped me come to a conclusion on things. vague but… ask me when u see me!

life has been good so far, or maybe cause i’m a half-full glass person. projects only just started to get heavy this week in sch. my income sort of dried out, but i got enough out of it for now to relax, plan and start all over again. i should really start getting busy on it actually.

and, amazingly school is so fun, as good as the holidays. okay it’s the people and not the lessons of course. actually maybe it’s just me again. but i can’t help feeling happy when i’m surrounded with great company.

any my new resolution for the next few months: to swim/gym at least twice a week. this is in the hope that i’ll lose weight or at least, stop growing fatter.

21 Feb

Grrrrrr8!

Looks like 2009 is turning out to be quite a gd year =)
The highlight of the year has to be valentine’s day! To summarize, i’ll quote one of Einstein’s line. Put your hand on a hot stove for a min, and it seems like an hour. Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute. That’s relativity.
Well, that’s exactly what happened. Dinner couldn’t have passed faster, we only had time to walk in one shop, the movie should have been wayyy longer. In short, time flew when we actually spent 6h together… hahaha. it’s okay, don’t be greedy :p
Just something that is bothering me; so wht now from here? hmmm

Yeah the one week break is here. Okay i’m not all excited or wht, just relieved it came. So here’s my schedule for now, BOOK ME ASAP!
Sat – dinner with my ac friends
Sun – soccer with the soccer gang
mon – rollerblading with sm maybe?
tues – ob Project and mrkting proj in sch
wed -
thur – will try to go out to eat ice creammm
fri -
sat -wine appreciation course
sun -

31 Dec

2009!

It’s the time of the year again when you look back on the past year and look forward to the next year. 2008 hasn’t been exactly gd either, so won’t be missing it much actually. may 2009 be better!

okay let me rattle off whatever comes to mind. actually, i just need someone to pour my troubles out to but there’s no such person available. so it goes here :)

First up, the thing that has been troubling me the most. Looks like i’m a bit overconfident of myself. which is nothing new, always the case actually. i would say my self-confidence has been a major part of what made me who i am today. it shaped my character in many a way. but then, ya, a girl can bring it all down. :)
So MAYBE i thought too highly of myself, which i realise has been working against me all the while. i said maybe because i’m not certain yet. and ya i don’t want to, or rather dare not confirm my thinking. still holding out for tt little hope u see. poof! it’ll be extinguished soon i guess. but at least it’ll keep me somewht happier giving myself a chance for as long as i can.
Okay this first part is going to be long. well i really needed someone to ask me abt it. which See Wah you did, so congrats about it and thank alot for asking yday. but maybe why i can’t talk to you about it is cause i don’t want you to be caught in the middle. you still have two gd friends, no worries for you :)
And I don’t think i’m gonna try to add/drop my classes already. there’s only one reason why i’ll do it, and of course it’s not about the lesson timing. i’ve lost the reason to change my classes, and i think being in the same class as u will make things awkward for u which i do not want to happen. i don’t think you actually bother abt it or give it two thoughts. so ya shall keep things the way it has turned out. i’m hoping i’ll have a reason to add/drop the classes in the next few days but ha, i know when i’m dreaming.
30th dec 08! i hope u didn’t see it as me trying to avoid you. i just needed to get through the day. and if i take one step forward, u take two steps back. so i was just trying to hold my ground, at least the distance don’t become wider anymore. and then sch will reopen soon, and i don’t need or have the chance to go out with you. so we’ll slowly drift away, as a new semester starts and we make new friends, cope with work and all. but at least i have memories.
Memories! :) ever since my previous relationship, i treasure the finer things in life. i kept the two movie stubs we watched together. cool isn’t it! i’m quite proud of myself actually. to keep smth i always thought was stupid. well that’s wht guys do sometimes. be just plain dumb.

Alright and because of all the above, i found out too that money can never make me happy. yes my online stuff is turning a profit. i don’t worry about it like i did when i first started. it was a hellish period no doubt. credit card maxed out, bank account with just a few dollars, everything grinding to a halt and you’re losing money… ok for sure u don’t feel the stress and worry like before. but when you finally make money, you realise it won’t make you smile. you just slp better, feel better. being happy? not at all. tt doesn’t mean it’s useless. because i’m still working on it, trying to get more out of it and grow bigger. but i’m glad i learnt smth through this early. money does not buy happiness.

And so, why have this year been bad? can’t really think now. still about stuff related to the previous relationship. i think it’s more of i have nothing to be happy about. so it wasn’t a confession or whatever when i said knowing you was one of the best things that happened to me this year. hahahah. i do treasure friends alot and place them high on my priority list. i wrote the same thing to see wah, that knowing her was one of the bright sparks of 2008. i think a lot of my words are misinterpreted by ppl. sometimes i don’t bother to explain cause i’m just bo chap. for tt, i had no space to write! it was a small card u see :p

I’ve wrote down my new goals, new plans for the year like how i’ve always done. it’s ambitious, and you can never set your goal too high right, Peter? haha can still rmb tt conversation with you. so i have great ambitions for next year. will work towards it, let’s see how it goes.

I’m a uni student, why nothing about sch? cause i don’t believe in it. for all those who i snubbed when i feel you were becoming somewht of an ass when results were released, i’m not apologetic about it at all. you just got on my nerve. for the rest, my gpa is 3.5. yes low, slightly disappointed, but i don’t really care. it’s average to me and gd enough. just writing this column so that i’ll get through sem 2 in the same way too. great things happen when you think about it and write it down. goals will somehow come true. so i’m showing slight concern for it since the universe works this way. gpa for next sem, around 4. :D

As for myself, i’m a naturally happy go lucky person. i know i’ve lost the smile and the happiness aura around me for a while now. i’m no longer excited about things, looking forward to events, sitting down and relax and ppl watch, doing some gardening, basically all the stuff i wrote down two years ago. my goals are all diminished, no more goal to take up a life guard course, learn french, spanish, jap, malay korean etc. in a way, i lost my direction and zest for life. well it was really the toughest time of my life. Well one day, i’ll retire and do what i’ve always wanted. just relaxing with my loved one, having my own garden in a mansion, sipping tea and just chilling out. not to mention touring the world. paris! still gets me excited..

To the rest of my friends out there. hope 2009 will be a gd year for u. or if it’s not, tt you may stay alive. wht doesn’t kill you make you stronger right? and you can never taste the sweetness of life if you’ve never been in the doldrums. just be like me. keep going on, one step, one day at a time no matter how painful it is. after all, time will pass and wounds will be healed. Happy New Year 2009 to all!

23 Dec

Never had anything gd to say here, this time’s no different too. If there’s anything that can make me lie wide awake for 20min in bed at 3am, it must be smth bad. it was, and so was the dream (nightmare?) that followed. but it’s ok, such stuff is nothing new. few days later and all will be well again.

Saw this in a forum not long ago. meaningful i guess? for now, i’m trying to follow rule 8..

The Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth

by Anton Szandor LaVey ©1967

[Spanish, Croation]

1. Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.

2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them.

3. When in another’s lair, show him respect or else do not go there.

4. If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat him cruelly and without mercy.

5. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.

6. Do not take that which does not belong to you unless it is a burden to the other person and he cries out to be relieved.

7. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.

8. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.

9. Do not harm little children.

10. Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food.

11. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask him to stop. If he does not stop, destroy him.

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