Recently, I seem to be thinking so much again. Much as I would like to help it, it still lingers in my heart even though I know it’s been quite many months. So many things remind me of those days, the time spent together. And then thinking how it all disappeared from me over night.

I lie in bed trying hard not to, but inevitably thinking of those memories. I wish I could get over it, but it really is more difficult then my friends make it out to be. Everyday I work hard to be tired, only to experience this sadness before I sleep. I smile and joke, but deep down, there are tears within me waiting to be shed. Not that I don’t want to let go. I just don’t know how.

Time for bed, may it be a happier and better day when I wake up.

Happy Valentine’s Day to you, you and you

You know, you can talk to any girls. Joke or flirt with them, talk or think about them. But the girl who you think of when you’re in bed before you fall asleep, she is someone different to you.

4 months. I don’t know if it’s long or short. But I still need to turn up the volume to drown out my thoughts. Time to sleep soon boy.

Nobody knows it but me

talking…
Wish I told her how I feel,
Maybe she’d be here right now
but instead…

singing…
I pretend that I’m glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I’m dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I’m crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn’t I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin’ down
I can say it so clearly but you’re nowhere around

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I’m missing you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry smile when I’m broken in two
And I’m nobody without someone like you
I’m trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me (yeah)

Lie awake, it’s a quarter past three
I’m screaming at night if I thought you’d hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me (well, well)

How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it’s been torn all apart
Billion words couldn’t say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I’ll be loving you still

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I’m missing you
And nobody knows it but me

oooo oohhhhh yeah

Tomorrow morning, I’m a hit a dusty road
Gonna find you, where ever, ever you might go
And I’m gonna load my heart and hope you come back to me

(Say whent the nights are lonely)
(3x with adlib until fade)
The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I’m missing you
And nobody knows it but me

Listening to these songs always help me through a tough day

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When you are searching and looking out for something, yet you don’t want to see anything. How do you describe it?

sigh, i miss u. alot.

Goodness, it’s so much harder than anything I’ve been through. Try as I might, I’ve done whatever it takes and everything I could. But I still start the day and end the day in the same way, with less of the fear only. I don’t know how much time I need, I can only take it as it comes.

Life is short, but the days are long

I think i’m slowing getting back the joy of doing business and entrepreneurship. The fun of it all, the excitement, uncertainties around it and the challenge of starting something yourself. It really rocks.